2009 is coming to an end. To me it is a bittersweet year.

Bitter: Many unpleasant and unexpected things happened.
First, my 'O' level results. I barely missed the mark by one point before I can enter JC.
Second, my condition. I am still at battle with it. And the battle was quite fierce for the past few days. Why? And I ought not question God about him permitting this condition on me. I still cannot understand why. It is a mystery, still.
Third, my "employment". I have been temporarily "fired" by the "boss". Thank God I can go back to the same "company" and the same "department" again, as he has no right to really "fire" me.
Fourth, him. I have decided to leave his "group", and it was quite a heartbreaking sight to see him cry. He only commited some minute mistakes, but I did not think twice before leaving his "group". It was exceedingly deplorable, but what can I do now? Blame myself? It is too late to cry over spilt milk.
All these events, when summed up, are all caused by one culprit: my condition.

Sweet: God has been good to me.
First, I knew it was not in God's plan for me to enter JC, so my path is now more transparent.
Second, though I could not understand what is God doing with me, I am assured that He is by my side, because I see people coming in at the different seasons of my life. People like John, George, and How Thim. Thank you, servants of the Lord! Thank you for drawing out time at your own expense to see me through the mountains and the valleys.
Third, because I became "unemployed", God has allowed me into FCBS, to learn his words and to understand more about Him. It helped me a lot in combating against some false concepts that I believe will not leave me if I had not attended FCBS. I would like to thank all the teachers in FCBS because they have enlightened me and empowered me with lifeskills and imparted to me some Christian values. Thank you so much.
Fourth, I find myself closer to my family members. Thanks to Mum and Dad for being there for me in one of the tough seasons of my life. Thank you for not giving up on me even when it seems almost insuperable to get me healed a few months ago(but now it is possible!!!). Thanks for contributing time and money everytime I meet the doctor. Thank you sister for going out with me occasionally and encouraging me.
Fifth, I find myself having new friends in every season. I have got my Pharmaceutical Science friends and SOL1 friends and FCBS friends. Perhaps God is concerned about my feelings of loneliness, so He sent new friends so that I can befriend them.
These events, when summed up, are the result of one thing: God's Magnamity and Grace.

God turns all bad thing for the good of those who love Him. So to those who are facing trials, be reminded of this.

I hope I had not miss anyone out.

Wishing all who reads this post a Happy New Year. One more hour to 2010. Will be leaving for Kuala Lumpur tomorrow. So thrilled!

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